All my thoughts are a whirl. I just realized today how much I have tried to make my life my own. I'm trying to control and failing miserably. I feel out of control...I might as well hand over the reins to Jesus anyway. What's the hold-up little lady? The curse of discontentedness has a grasp on me. It's interesting to note how the effects of apathy seep unsuspectingly into my bones and before I know it, I'm numb.
I mentioned previously that I discovered something rather revolutionary for my little mind. Here it goes:
All this time I've been trying to act like a grazing cow and it turns out that I am a jungle cat. A JUNGLE CAT! The very animal that I have never claimed much of an attachment to nor appreciation for. The domestic version anyway... This insight into my animal personality has challenged just about everything that I've grown to hold as truth in the recent months. It all stems from discovering that I am 0+ blood type. Anyone who reads that statement is entitled to furrow their brow and ask why that has any relevance at all in the scene of things. Science holds a very different opinion. The significance of this discovery effects my decision to pursue a raw/vegan lifestyle. I thrive on irony. I enjoy interesting and unexpected twists in the plot. Well, I certainly have been blessed with an ironic circumstance to throw my hands up over. 0 blood type...drum roll please...of all the blood types, requires meat to meet its nutritional needs! And all this time I was pursuing a diet that is complete opposition to that philosophy. A carnivorous creature by nature, I am. According to my blood. That genetic footprint that makes me the person that I am today. I am a tied and true hunter and gatherer. My attempts to mask my true identity as a cow have been exposed. And I'm left disoriented and at a loss. And it also makes me laugh. The saga of the human yo-yo continues. At the end of all this, I will either become a tied and true meat connoisseur, or be fully committed to life in the raw. So to anyone who has read my previous blog entries and noted that I was on a raw kick, please let me say that I am grossly biting my tongue at this moment. This is an evolving journey. I put myself in the way of possibility and possibility threw me a curve ball. Upping the stakes are you Destiny? Ok, I'll play. And I'll keep everyone posted in the process.
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