Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Sidewalk walking, street side searching, mumbling and bumbling along, amidst other members of the population. I decided to have an opinion this afternoon. And the conclusion that I came to was this. I will share the ending at the beginning of my story. Because I want to have answers. I want it all to make sense before I start. That way I won't have to step out in faith and trust that "it will all work out." I don't mean for that to sound snide. It just seems to be my trend lately. God himself said that he would "heal their faithlessness," back in the day when Israel had lost their self-respect. I forget to hang onto faith. And everything that is pure gets muddled really quickly. And so I become focused on whatever makes me feel better and before I know it I am trapped in the downward spiral of cravings that control me. I can't tell the difference between the real and the fake. My efforts to remain unaltered by false assertions don't prove very fruitful. And that is the raw truth.